Midnight (or later) Musings

Tonight, I’m sitting here thinking about marriage. I’m thinking about the married couples I know. I’m thinking a lot about Danny and Jill.

They’ve been together forever. And I love their relationship. I know that Jared and I aren’t like them…not in most ways, in fact. But I’m enjoying having such a great couple to look at and want to be like. I don’t think they know that I feel that way about them, and I don’t know if it’s important that they ever do (sure, I can stalk Danny’s blog, but I’ll bet you he never reads mine…). I was just looking at pictures of them someone had posted coming out of the Temple, and I just suddenly felt that choked up feeling when you know it’s too late and you’re over emotional. They love each other so deeply that you can see it in their faces when they are together. And now, they’re starting their eternal family with a sweet baby boy coming in just a few months. I want that.

I’m not close to most of my siblings. Due to unfortunate past events, and some serious emotional scarring, those relationships aren’t as strong as they could or should be. I love them all, mind you, but as I grow older and I get more contact with them, I realize how little I know them and how little they know me. The ones that have been to the Temple I don’t talk to very often. But Danny and Jill give me someone to look up to. I don’t know how excited they are to gain me as a sister, but I know I can’t wait until I can call them family.

Isn’t it funny how we can influence people without even knowing it? Just by being ourselves everyday we can touch someone’s life. What a perspective!

Just think what would have happened if Jared had never turned around in our math class to ask me if I was okay in seventh grade?

“You don’t have to be a “person of influence” to be influential. In fact, the most influential people in my life are probably not even aware of the things they’ve taught me.”

Scott Adams